Change.

Change
To change is to risk something, making us feel insecure. Not to change is a bigger risk, though we seldom feel that way. There is no choice but to change. People, however, cannot be motivated to change from the outside. All of our motivation comes from within. Where do people get this motivation to change? Motivation can come in a variety of sources, but the most common one is through pain. For example lets say a woman gained weight, if she was previously in good physical condition, works in a fashion industry and loves to be slim and attractive, she will definitely be motivated to lose the weight. Gaining that weight was obviously painful to her and in order to have that feeling of being attractive and slim again, there is a need for change. Now that is one example of being motivated to change. The response to new information given is another form of motivation to change. Like in school, students are motivated to do well as they learn that failing is not an option to consider. The things that happen in life can be another form of motivation, like for example having a baby, getting married etc. Inspiration by friends or family can also be a form of motivation. Now we come to this form of motivation that is less effective in triggering a change. That is to force someone to change. Like for example, you are at your desk, and your boss comes up to you and says, "Ben, how many times have i told you, no eating in the office, you better change that habit of yours OR ELSE i will have to replace you with someone else. " In this situation, the boss can be a little effective in forcing you to change because they are the ones that pay you. Now you must remember that you have a choice, its either to change your habit or to get another job. Considering the fact that you might take days or even weeks to find another job, or the mortgage you have to pay. Well for this situation, this option is simple i would definitely choose to change. Or i will have to accept the consequences. In the end, your motivation to change something about yourself may come from, perhaps a little because of pain, a little because you're inspired to be a better person, and a little because your spouse would like you to stop that habit. Becoming aware of your primary motivation to change is the best source for setting off on a new path, a new direction in life.

This was what i wrote on december the 6th 2006. Just thought that this applies to my life right now. Unfortunately what motivated me to change is...through pain. I will have to accept the consequences. Friends, please do cherish what you have right now, do not wait until its gone, it might be too late...

I pray... I will keep praying...

Happy 6 months :)

Hey dear, happy anniversary. Yea we did not have time to celebrate it this weekend. Probably some time this week ya? I just want to say i love you so much.