I really need to prioritize my things. I realise one thing that i am not good at is prioritizing. My security leader addressed this issue before, that i cant please everyone at the same time. There is only one Ben. And i need to know what i want.

Today went for JW service, Dr John is truly a legend hehe. I love the way he preached and the message is a wow. I mean everyone uses that chapter as an offering message but probably no one expounded it like how Dr John did. God's presence was so tangible today, its just awesome.

Before service i found out i had a soccer match today... and Zhi hong has to fetch me back to get my soccer gear. Our team lost 1 - 0 today. We played really well today. I just felt that i can do so much more than what i did today. I want to chase the ball, i want to get the ball first, but my stamina wouldn't let me... nowadays i just get tired so easily. But the second half i picked up a bit of the momentum. Next week.. i am going to go all out.

ICT

If you guys are wondering why isnt Ben online anymore, its because i have been called back for reservist. Since last friday and it will end on 29 nov. When i reported to my unit 680SIR.... i realise i am placed in a 6 year battalion. And its my first in camp haha. I am the only 21 year old amongst like 27 - 30 year old plus people LOL. But i thank God so much because all my fellow commanders are all so nice. I am currently in platoon 1 section 3. And my section i am suppose to have 6 people but currently i only have like 3. And they are Ye, my M203 gunner, not married currently working as an organiser for events. He organize the musicians that will play for the night and he does the MC. and he organize for some of the celebrities as well. Next i have Fadly who is my LAW gunner, just got married, working as a video producer, currently he has this important project for his company. and lastly i have Stanley Boon Wee, my SAW gunner, he is working as a sales engineer, something to do with lighting.

At first i was really afraid, i was thinking how do i talk to these people, they are all older than me and they don want to be here, who wants to go for reservist haha. I just have to take away my rank and talk to them. Rank doesnt matter anymore, its getting to know your men well that matters. And i find it easy just talking to them like friends. And it doesnt matter how old they are, I still have to take care of them, get them to training, help them with their weapons and stuff. To be a good commander, i need to know my stuff well so that whenever they need help i am able to help them.

Thank God everyone is so nice haha... My CSM gave me off for tomorrow after i take my IPPT tomorrow i can BOOK OUT! WOOHOO.. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS! ASIA CONFERENCE! hahahahahahahahaa. I get to SKIP TRAINING. woohoo! and i get to book in the next morning.

But next week is going to be tougher. I guess i don mind being in this unit after all. Thank God. Even though there is a big age gap... i still fill part of them.

Happy Birthday to Ben

On saturday i went to meet Weehung, Cailing and David, Libin cant make it because she fell sick. But it was a good day, we went to watch Madagascar 2 and after that we went over to bugis to shop for some stuff. After shopping we head over to a dessert place to have some dessert before we went to have our dinner. I had to leave early so i walked over to Billy Bombers with them sat for a while and left. Went down for security training in expo which lasted till 10.30pm, then went home.

On sunday went for service in the morning till around 4pm and i had to leave because my parents are waiting for me at home to go for dinner. Thanks Jason for celebrating my birthday and the rest of the security people in JW. I got a grey belt as a present which i am able to wear to match my shoes haha. We went over to this farm area in choa chu kang to have dinner, the food there is awesome, we had like satay, pork knuckle, chicken wings, sting ray, thats about it. I ate too much that day. We havent had dinner together for a long time. It was good.

On monday i went over to help out at bendemeer. then after i went over to visit Cailing at dhoby ghaut for a bit then met David at center point. We walked around for a bit and then went over to Somerset mrt to meet Singyee. After that we head down to botak jones opposite cineleisure for dinner. It was good, thanks for the treat David and Singyee. After that we went over to cineleisure to have dessert at Hong Kong cafe. Thanks for the treat again. haha. After that it was quite late so we decided to go home. Hope you guys enjoyed yourselves.

Today, met up with Mich and Vone on my birthday. Apparently Ray was MIA haha and Germ was busy and Ivan was busy too. But even though it was only 2 of yous, i had a great time hope both of you did too, thanks for everything. I liked the bag from Germ, Vone, Mich and Ivan. Really needed it haha... my current bag is like messy and quite old.



Yea we went over to watch DragonHunter over at cine, it was quite funny, it was good. We went over to gloria cafe thingo to change into my new bag, haha and Vone and Mich helped me tidy up my bag and throw stuff away for me LOL. After that went over to the library over at bugis because Mich had to return her books. We went to have our dinner over at some steamboat place called Steamboat Ramen apparently the official opening date was today, it was quite good. We chiong the prawns and the muscles and the shells and the crabs... ok maybe not we just Mich haha. Vone and I like chiong the beef. we ate for like 2 hours plus plus... haha so full... then after we went over to bugis to shop for a bit, we had ice cream after that. went back home after ice cream. It was a good day, i enjoyed my myself i hope you guys did too. thanks.

Well today went pass really fast and before you know it its no longer your birthday haha. 17 more minutes till its over. Alright thats all.

When you think you are on top of the world

Sometimes in life, you think you are already at your limit. You think you have got it all. You think you have conquered every single thing there is to conquer in life. But before you know it, there is more to it then just that. Before you know it you have already set a boundary for yourself, you have place yourself into a container where you feel so comfortable with. Everything that you need or want is already in that container, there is no need to dig any further. That is what you think, but what God has for you and has prepared for you is far more then what you can think of or imagine.



You will never know what God has prepared for you unless you dig further down.

Job 14:5 Man's days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.

God has set for you a limit that you cannot exceed, there is no reason why you should stay where you are now. For you are never alone. He walks with you.

DANGEROUS!!!!!

Memories

lol... my friend in Australia was running through his pictures when he saw these and sent it to me. Wow.... thats me in red, when i was in Australia. My hair was center parting. Yea the second picture because at that period of time i was a big fan of BoA, so my friend went to cut my face and put it there. LOL. we had fun.

Holidays

Woh... time passes by so fast... its already been 2 weeks since exams. Currently still looking for a job. Today i went to suntec and while i was there i had lunch i had... what is it called again... i really have no idea but it was really nice. haha but the food court there quite expensive. I had a looooooooooooooooong day and I am really tired i should go to sleep now. Good night.

WOOHOO

Finally the day i have been waiting for... haha. Today after exams went out with Jack, Ivan, Germ, Vone, Mich, Ray, Fiona. We went over to Cine to watch House bunny.. haha not bad for a chick flick. After that the rest went home and i went shopping with Vone and Germ, i left at bout 645pm to go for discipleship meeting at clarke quay. It's been so long since we all went out together, i would say we had a good time.

LAST DAY TOMORROW

WOOHOO LAST DAY OF EXAMS TOMORROW TIME TO PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to thank God for all my friends who helped me through my exams, Ray, Vone, Germ, Mich, Weehung, Cailing, Libin, MJ. And for all those who prayed for me, thanks Lai yoong for that 3am message haha... thanks Ying Xiu for that morning message. But its not time to relax now. Theres one more exam tomorrow and its hard...

Thank God today's exam was kinda of easy because its like a copy of past year paper and i did it yesterday night thanks to Vone hahahaha. I think its all good.

2 days away from exams

I just wanna thank God for giving me 1 month to study before exams. It was all planned out really well. All the best to me this thursday. friday monday and tuesday.

Went shopping with Carey and David on saturday to get clothes to wear for sunday service haha. Shop for quite sometime then in the end found the right clothes. After that head down for expo service and celebrated Matthew's birthday. David got him lego at quite a good price at Taka. After service we went over to sembang bedok to eat some prata, its been a long time since i last went there.

Sunday we celebrated Zhi Hong birthday. I just wanna thank God that like everything went quite well even though he was rushing off. We were still able to celebrate and pray for him. Sometimes price doesn't matter when it comes to a birthday present, its whether the person liked it or not. Glad that i got the correct one haha.

Zhi Hong asked me to join the harvest league. Really can't wait to get into a league again, its been like 4 years since i last play for a team. Abit rusty with my skills, probably need to touch up abit soon after my exams.

Singapore Airlines

Beautiful plane yea? hehe hopefully one day i get to fly them. Once a pilot always a pilot...

Cadet Pilot

This entry-level position is based in Singapore, and is for candidates who display a strong interest in aviation.

REQUIREMENTS

• Singapore Citizen, Singapore Permanent Resident or Malaysian Citizen
• GCE ‘A’ level, Polytechnic Diploma or Degree. In addition, you must have obtained a minimum of 5 Credits in the GCE ‘O’ level or its equivalent. These must include English, Mathematics and a Science subject, preferably Physics, taken at one sitting
• At least 1.65 m in height
• Visual acuity of at least 6/60, correctable to 6/6. For candidates who have undergone corrective eye surgery (e.g. Lasik), your pre-surgical visual acuity should not be more than 500 degrees (myopia)
• Medically fit

TRAINING

Successful candidates will spend 15 to 17 months on training to acquire an Airline Transport Pilot’s License (ATPL) with Instrument Rating (IR) at Pilot Training Schools in Singapore and overseas. Full board and lodging will be provided. Upon obtaining the flying license, you will undergo further training for 1 to 2 years to become a First Officer.

REMUNERATIONS AND SERVICE BENEFITS

A monthly allowance will be provided during training. On appointment as a First Officer, you will be paid a basic salary and various allowances. Benefits include medical and dental treatment, and discounted travel.

SOT GRADUATION!

haha in about 11 hrs time i will be on stage. so excited. it is a day we all have been waiting for... awesome

Trinity

Learning about theology in SOT today. Learning about the trinity. God the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit. Quite confusing if you don't accept the fact that God is 3 but yet there is only 1 God. God is 3 but 1. Hehe. If you try to understand it you will lose your mind. If you try to deny it you will lose your soul. So friends just accept by FAITH. God is 3 but 1. The LORD is one!

Lord, thank You for the things you have done for me. Sometimes, i have neglected the things you have given me, and what You have given, You have the right to take back. But of course there must be a reason why God takes it back, its because its not doing so well and its for our good. I have learned so much Lord, i thank You for bringing me through this because i can say that i deserve it.

Lord i pray that you give me one more chance! Everything will be so different. If its your will let it be done.

Trust in God

Matt 19:6 "So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate."

Change.

Change
To change is to risk something, making us feel insecure. Not to change is a bigger risk, though we seldom feel that way. There is no choice but to change. People, however, cannot be motivated to change from the outside. All of our motivation comes from within. Where do people get this motivation to change? Motivation can come in a variety of sources, but the most common one is through pain. For example lets say a woman gained weight, if she was previously in good physical condition, works in a fashion industry and loves to be slim and attractive, she will definitely be motivated to lose the weight. Gaining that weight was obviously painful to her and in order to have that feeling of being attractive and slim again, there is a need for change. Now that is one example of being motivated to change. The response to new information given is another form of motivation to change. Like in school, students are motivated to do well as they learn that failing is not an option to consider. The things that happen in life can be another form of motivation, like for example having a baby, getting married etc. Inspiration by friends or family can also be a form of motivation. Now we come to this form of motivation that is less effective in triggering a change. That is to force someone to change. Like for example, you are at your desk, and your boss comes up to you and says, "Ben, how many times have i told you, no eating in the office, you better change that habit of yours OR ELSE i will have to replace you with someone else. " In this situation, the boss can be a little effective in forcing you to change because they are the ones that pay you. Now you must remember that you have a choice, its either to change your habit or to get another job. Considering the fact that you might take days or even weeks to find another job, or the mortgage you have to pay. Well for this situation, this option is simple i would definitely choose to change. Or i will have to accept the consequences. In the end, your motivation to change something about yourself may come from, perhaps a little because of pain, a little because you're inspired to be a better person, and a little because your spouse would like you to stop that habit. Becoming aware of your primary motivation to change is the best source for setting off on a new path, a new direction in life.

This was what i wrote on december the 6th 2006. Just thought that this applies to my life right now. Unfortunately what motivated me to change is...through pain. I will have to accept the consequences. Friends, please do cherish what you have right now, do not wait until its gone, it might be too late...

I pray... I will keep praying...

Happy 6 months :)

Hey dear, happy anniversary. Yea we did not have time to celebrate it this weekend. Probably some time this week ya? I just want to say i love you so much.

Praise the Lord, for He walks with me through the valley of dry bones.
He strengthens me when i am tired, that i am able to walk with Him to the end.
Praise the Lord, no matter what happens, He will always be there for you. Though sometimes we are not skill to understand what God has made what God has plan, we must know its all for good. Thank God.

Work

Happy anniversary dear, had a great dinner with you :)

Being employed in this job its quite interesting.
I get to serve people, learn techniques of pouring wine. Get to learn the different types of wine, chardonnay (white wine), cabernet sauvignon (red wine), merlot, shiraz etc.
I get to taste the different types of wine, the smell, learn how to enjoy the different wines. Learn to pair wine with food, like chardonnay will go well with salad. Shiraz will go well with pork.

I met a winemaker his name is Luigi Bazzani from Italy has a vineyard in Australia, the Perennes. I am honoured to be 1 of the 4 being taught by him. Tasted 4 types of his wine, one of it is the Estate shiraz tasted quite tannin, smooth to drink not too acidic, very nice. Quite a nice guy won many awards for his wines.

It is a good experience for me being able to work here.

Aishiteru

I have not seen you for 2 days, really missed you alot. I am happy today that we met up to catch a movie. It was a great movie especially with you hehe...
Hiro was a river to her and yu was the sea to her.... but i can be the ocean for you, no matter what happens my waves will always wash you up close to me, no matter where i go my waves will never leave you behind.
愛してる

Looking forward to seeing you again.

My Dear and me

Happy 2 months!I met her today at bukit batok, which was a bad place to chill out :S then after went over to woodlands.
We went over to swensens for dinner, we both had baked rice, but mine just tasted not so good but i guess its not the food i am there for :S Its the person i am spending time with =)and it was really really good, had a great time with you.
Looking forward to spending time with you the rest of my life :)